Day 35.......yah yah, so I've been slacking....

Ok Ok.......so I have been majorly slacking on the blog........seems life catches up with me and I don't feel like blogging about every darn thing I ate that day or how much the scale hates me. LOL

So about a month into this challenge and it's been one hell of a month......ups, downs, ins, outs, and I'm only 1/3 of the way through it! Just when I think I have things figured out, nope........so this just goes to show you the process of losing weight and getting healthy is a constant learning curve. We must constantly learn about our bodies and what works and what doesn't. I think I'm just being stubborn especially with the exercise. Let's face it. I'm still fighting the lazy bug. I know what it takes to get me to where I need to be, but I just don't want to do it! HA! Are there 12 steps for losing weight? There should be............seriously............

So I think I've been doing ok, I have my good days and my so so days and then my ok days, but haven't had any horrible days since my last posting. I have noticed that my mood has been sour in the last week or so. I seem more annoyed as of lately and I don't know why. Maybe it's because I got out of the eating every 2 hours thing that I was doing last week, or that my body is changing and everything is playing catch up. My training is getting harder, I can feel the changes in various parts of my body, but my impatience is getting to me.

Ahhhh, the ramblings of the fat girl..............I guess I will always think like the fat girl.......maybe I'm just tired...........

Still doing my 2 shakes a day, that is one thing I have NOT wavered on and even though the scale is slow as hell going down it's still going down. The fluctuation could be blamed on numerous things such as bloat, PMS, not eating enough, working out every day, not enough water, heavier weights while working out, building lean muscle........but on the good note, I can button a size 11/12 pants but too much muffin top hanging over..........so I'll wait awhile longer before I go buy those pants LOL

Hope this rambling hasn't bored anyone who's reading this but I can't put together a single thought.......my brain is toast......speaking of toast........I'm hungry................

Day 25......Motivation Station!!!

Alright!!! The train has pulled into motivation station!!! WOOT WOOT!! ALL ABOARD!!! LOL

I am motivated to not only change my life and my family's lives but anyone reading this or reading my facebook. I feel it is my job and my duty to share this amazing journey with the people in my life. This is why I write this, because we owe it to ourselves and to our spouses and our children to be the best that we can be. I was looking back at some headshots from 2010 and I am horrified that I ever looked like I did. What in the hell was I thinking? No wonder I was so miserable? For those who haven't seen it....................

WOW!!! What a change, what a huge difference.....what a fatass I was.....No wonder I felt like crap....my body reflected what I was putting into it. YUCK. No more, never again!

So today was day 2 of making it to the gym everyday! Training yesterday and today cardio and some machines. I am determined to make it to the gym EVERYDAY if it kills me. I really have no excuse for NOT going. I don't work outside the home, my kids are in school all day and the gym is literally five minutes from my house, so why do i not go daily? Because I am still trying to get rid of my LAZY mentality......no other reason because I am still training my brain to get motivated. I can buy all the workout clothes and new tennis shoes I want but that is not going to get my butt in gear any faster. The only person that is going to change that is ME. I can't sit around and complain about my belly fat unless I am the one to change it, which means getting my butt in the gym EVERYDAY and doing my 2 shakes a day and making healthier choices when it comes to my meals and snacking.

I have also increased my protein intake daily and started eating more. I still do my 2 shakes a day but I have started trying to eat something every 2 hours. Whether it be a yogurt, or string cheese, almonds, toast, something every 2 hours to keep my metabolism going. It's so important now that I'm working out more and burning calories. So I shall see if I see more results.

Oh yeah, I have NOT stepped on the scale for 3 days now! This is a huge thing for me because I have been weighing DAILY and all I found was frustration. The magic is not in the number on the scale, it's in the inches lost, it's in the lean muscle that is being built, it's in the energy I have, it's in the way I feel and it's in the glow that I put to others.....

Today I feel good, not tired, and I'm still working on the eating thing. I guess after 30 years of eating bad and not knowing how to eat correctly, it takes time to re-learn new habits, so I'll keep at it and hopefully I can teach others healthy eating and healthy habits!!!

Day 22...........busy day.......

8/6*Well today was not as successful as I would have liked for it to be as far as eating........

I had 2 pieces of bacon and 2 cinnamon rolls this morning and my shake. YIKES! But I knew that I was going canoeing this afternoon and did not want to get hungry and be starving floating down the river. I took some snacks, and did eat a protein bar and some string cheese and lots of water which helped.......then went to dinner with Damon's folks for my birthday dinner..........but didn't eat much.....had some pulled pork (very little), potato salad (very little), apple coleslaw, green beans, roll and I'm stuffed.....and I haven't gotten my 2nd shake of the day in yet! I guess these days will happen...



I have really made an effort this week with the gym and made it every day but one....today counted as a workout because we were canoeing and that in itself was a workout. I did two workouts and cardio this week and I really felt great that I did that, BUT my weight is going UP!!! NOOOOOOOOOO!!!! I have read about this and I am hoping that it's because my workouts are becoming more intense and my weights are going up and because I'm hitting the gym on a daily basis this week?? My diet has been the same....2 shakes a day, lots of water, snacks in between, the only real difference is having dinner instead of doing a shake.........i've been doing morning and afternoon shake vs. morning and dinner shake...........getting frustrated here.....so far this challenge, my weight has gone up and down like a roller coaster and i'm doing everything right, at least i feel that I am and I'm so afraid of the scale going up and up and up and up.........AHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Here I go in freak out mode..........guess I go back to the gym and bust my butt...........but i don't know what I'm doing wrong so I don't know what to fix.............this is such a frustrating struggle and I am so tired of trying and trying and not knowing what to do..........

Tomorrow is another day.......I guess I'll keep at it..........

Day 20......

I can't believe it's day 20......I have only measured myself on Day 1, but my measurements differ from my gym measurements so I think I'm going to go by those. My weight difference from day 1 to day 20 has been 6 pounds lighter, so I'll take that. Hit the gym today and did an entire workout from my workout guide on my own! :) That is the first time that I've ever completed one without my trainer breathing down my neck. It felt good to be able to say I did it. I'm sore and stiff now, but glad I did it.

I have to do something to continue to lose....Had both my shakes already today and going to get ready to fix a healthy dinner....some grilled chicken breast and some baked veggies with some salad......I'm kind of excited for dinner...I've been kind of in a so so mood, I think because Damon has been in a mood lately and we seem to feed off of each other. He's having bad pain days and not feeling well so it tends to bring me down too. Trying to keep the positive flow, but sometimes the RSD bleeds into everything. Oh well, what can you do.....

Still keeping at it, still eating my snacks, doing my shakes and keeping my team motivated and I'm finding that is the hardest task! I want everyone to succeed and feel as awesome as I do, but I know they are getting frustrated because they may not be seeing the results they want, but hopefully they will keep at it and get there....

another short and sweet, just not in the mood to blog the last week or so..........been away from the computer for a bit.....

Day 18.....sore muscles

Ahhhh, feeling the burn today.......2 days in a row at the gym.......2 shakes a day....as far as snacks....let's see yogurt, grapes, some salsa and tortilla chips, banana chips, more grapes, homemade black bean chili for dinner.....overall a good day and feeling good energy.

I got my FREE transformation kit today. All because I got my 3 for free! So yes, Visalus does work and I love this company! :)

Today is short and sweet but living life.....just wanted to keep everyone updated but I'm keeping at it!

Day 16, Nothing but rain today....

Sometimes you just gotta have rain to cleanse things........today was one of those days......a day for cleansing.....woke up to rain rain rain.........

Had my 2 shakes today and haven't been to the gym since Thursday, but have been cleaning house, doing chores and helping my sister unpack and organize so it's not like I have been sitting on my ass. I did snack a little today and made spaghetti for dinner with whole wheat pasta. I also had a small salad with a piece of garlic bread for dinner and now having some coffee before bed! HA! Nothing like some caffeine before bed.....back to the grind tomorrow...

Not much to blog about today....not really in the mood for writing tonite....so short and sweet!

Day 15.........running on fumes.....

Fighting to keep my eyes open, it's been a long day and I'm very sleepy......been up since 5 a.m. and I didn't go to sleep till late. My sister got in early this morning (5 a.m.) and I've been up ever since!

Had breakfast at Cracker Barrel this morning. Enjoyed some EggBeater's, hashbrowns, a piece of country ham, 1 biscuit and a little bit of gravy with some water. I ate just enough to get full but not too full. I had my shake several hours later, after watching that tear jerker of a movie The Vow......and had a yogurt for my snack. Drank lots of water today because we sat outside most of the day visiting and catching up and it was hot. Unloaded my sister's uhaul and unpacked her stuff, got her all set up so I got my exercise in for the day, sweated plenty!

Had 2 very small pieces of baked barbecue chicken, very small serving of red beans and rice, and a small serving of cottage cheese for dinner then followed that up with my evening shake. I'm comfortable but not really full, my metabolism is really kicking in this evening because my stomach is really growling tonite.

I can't focus on this blog tonite however because I'm so damn tired....I'm going to bed....good day, so glad to see my sister and overall a very good day!

Goodnight!